You hear all sorts of things about how some stress is good for you. I totally agree. I like having lots to do. Heck, that's part of the reason I'm getting a Masters degree. :)
However, I think I have met my worst enemy...bad stress. The kind where I think of all the things I have to do in the next two weeks and it makes me cry. Every night. And any little thing could make me freak out at any moment. The kind where my shoulders tense up and only relax while I sleep. I end up with my shoulders scrunched up all day and a very uncomfortable look on my face.
I only have like 2 1/2 weeks until I'm done with school...probably forever. I'm working on a grant that is due the same time I have my final comprehensive exam that I MUST pass in order to graduate. Likelihood that I'll fail? Not high, but I thought that about other people last year and they were not so fortunate. You know how grants can overwhelm someone's life for several days. That's where I am. How do I have time to write this post? It's my therapy. I have to have something.
I think I'd be much better off if I were coming home to a husband who had made dinner and done the dishes. As great as my husband is, that's just not happening right now. He's busy finishing his semester and trying to write a thesis. So, as it is, I get up at 6 or so to do some triathlon training and go to bed at 11 ish. He comes home between 2 and 3 every night and gets as much sleep as he possibly can before he has to go back to work. The few minutes we have together every day are so wonderful and so precious.
It's weird because I feel like I love him so much more. I miss him so much.
May 10th will you please come sooner. Please? I'll bake you cookies if you do. And then we can look as we did 1 year ago, enjoying the beautiful weather.
And, because I can't figure out how to delete one of these pictures, you have two!
